Broken....

The rough pillow is the only one who heeds my tears.
All the smiles that had rained on me,
today turn back and lash at me as frowns
Anger and Pain, with their jagged knives
jab at my sides,
till the wounds of yester years
bleed afresh,
the earth the only cotton for them.
Hope and Faith have dropped from me,
like autumn leaves from a tree,
leaving me bare,
naked..
Mellow sunshine dodges away from me.
The scented breeze keeps its distance.
Joy, who had once danced with me
today looks back sullenly.
The dead soles of my feet lie leaden,
too dead to moan in pain.
like my soul that lies lifelessly,
somewhere.
My lips have been sewn with fine threads’
and they ask me why I don’t answer.
Frozen I lay, with a frozen world within
waiting for the impossible warmth.
But cold hands hold me,
in a lovelessly passionate grasp.
Like a hungry boarhound, tied by a leash,
Misfortune growls at me, threateningly,
eager to sink its daggers in my flesh
My broken dreams lie in a shimmering heap,
too far away for me to see.
Were they ever there?
My flight lays at my feet,
Her wings clipped,
Did she ever soar?
Love, having danced her illusion
has now gone ahead for another prey.
I had once faced the world arms wide open
to take on anything it gave.
But today, I wail noiselessly,
at the grave of My Little World,
Unconsoled,
Unheard,
Unloved,
Unknown….

From Green Lips...

"I don’t want to serve you,
nor do I want to be served.
I just want to love you,
and in turn by you be loved.

I don’t ask any questions,
nor any answers do I seek.
I just love with all my heart,
the strong as well as the weak.

I wish you you would realize,
how painfull it is for a mother
to watch and weep helplessly,
as one beloved child kills the other.

It’s not easy, trust me
to be this hard on you.
To make you see the right way,
to make you see what’s true.

But I know as your mother,
it’s important that you learn
It may, sometimes be the harder way,
but it may help you to return.

Return to what I had made you like,
return from what you’ve done wrong
Return close to me, my child,
return to where you belong."
~~Maithili Desai